Jumbled thoughts

Okay, let's be real for a minute.

I was lying in bed last night snuggling up next to my hubby and I realized that there are only a select number of these nights left with just the two of us. Don't get me wrong, we are both very excited about the little boy coming to greet us in the spring; however I must admit I felt some feelings of selfishness about having to share everything. Even though Eric and I have spent every night together for the past 5 years, it doesn't feel like enough these days. I think these feelings are fueled by pregnancy hormones. (ya think??) I am looking forward to holding and loving this baby SO much, but I'd be lying if I didn't say that a part of me is sad about the fact that it won't just be the 2 of us anymore getting to sleep as much as we choose. I'm just being honest here and I'm going to use this blog as my outlet. I feel like I can't post certain crap on facebook b/c of people's comments and then I just get irritated. Honestly, a lot of stuff is pissing me off lately and I can't even figure out why. I guess I can blame it on hormones, or if I don't I will bet the farm someone else will. HA! I get sick of reading all these sugary sweet posts and stuff...COME ON PEOPLE, be real. (translation: be pissy like me)


I think I got off topic.



Yes, I'm wondering how the future will be with bringing a new life into the picture. I know it will be great and like nothing we can ever prepare for. Everyone with kids says "it's so wonderful and it's the best thing ever!" One side of me thinks sweet! Can't wait!! The other side of me thinks yes, perhaps; but I think once you're a parent you have to say that. It's overwhelming and I can't help but think about all the aspects it brings; fun times and hard times. I am truly excited to have a son on the way and I cannot wait to meet him! I realized once I lost Chester how much of a void is left in my heart without someone to take care of. I know parenthood will be great for me. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't terrified though. I think part of it is b/c this was a surprise pregnancy. Even though I had thought about wanting to start a family for a while, it almost feels like it's happening too fast now. I am happy for the future though, let's face it...I'm not getting any younger and I really don't want to be 60 raising a teenager. Half of me really enjoys being pregnant, and the other half is ready to move on. BUT, since there is little time to enjoy the alone time Eric and I have right now, I'm going to try and make the most of it and hopefully I can hold this baby in as long as I can.



I can tell you where some of this daily frustration comes from....the stupid Christmas music at all the stores combined with children screaming b/c their bratty butts want all the toys the parents are buying for other kids. I can't stand Christmas music in the stores a month before Christmas. Seriously, I don't need to hear that crap....I like it the week of Christmas but that's IT!!! I think it makes everyone crazy. Makes me more stressed when I shop, that's for sure. Especially when I hear the lady in front of me singing along to it or better yet...whistling to it. Maybe I'm just a bitch. I'm just now getting old enough to realize it. hahahaha. I guess the holidays make most people cheery and warm, it makes me bitter and cold a lot of the time. Maybe that's due to the fact that I have lost so many close people to me right around Christmas. It reminds me of death. And I don't enjoy thinking of death at all. (another topic I could go on about but I will spare that post for now)



Anyways, I just felt the need to write my thoughts. On a different note, little man kicked me in the ribs for the first time today and it startled me. Holy cow! I was driving and I guess I was slouching to one side and it made me jump pretty hard. He's not THAT big yet, but I guess my bad posture made it easier for him to hit bone. Score. I do enjoy watching my belly dance all the time and he really prefers my right side lately. Funny how something so tiny can have a preference.

24 Weeks

Oh my, what rush. Little dude moves all the time now...I think he will be one of those people that paces when he is on the phone. (mom and dad both do that...but dad does it more!) I'm so happy that he is pretty active most days b/c I tend to be a more paranoid person. It doesn't feel like I thought it would feel...I guess? It's a foreign feeling to have something alive in your body playing twister. "right hand rib, left foot bladder...POW!" I can feel him shift and flip...he seems to prefer being on my right side. He likes to turn and stick his head out towards my belly button and his butt towards my spine. (could be the other way around, I really can't tell yet) What a weird and wonderful feeling at the same time. I like being able to feel exactly where he is most of the time.

I have noticed that I have to pee urgently every 40 minutes or so. Awesome. Wanna hear something else that's cool? I realized yesterday that I can't really see myself to shave properly; if you know what I mean. I didn't think that would happen yet. I don't feel THAT big. I have also noticed that I have trouble getting comfortable and my back is very easy to strain now. *sigh. But, I really can't complain. I'm having a very good pregnancy (minus the migraines) and I wouldn't trade this feeling for anything. Well, I'll trade it for a baby :)

We have not decided on a name yet, but names are sounding more appealing now so I'm a little relieved. I can't decide on what I want the nursery to look like, so I think I'm just going to pick a color palette so I can paint the room and at least get furniture. I know, I don't have anything yet. I have trouble committing to such things (you would know this if you saw my house b/c right now we sport the minimalist look). Unless I can find a bedding set that I really know is THE ONE, I'm going to buy some cute sheet sets and make the bumper and possibly a blanket/quilt with my mother's help. I like a lot of sets, which is why I have trouble picking one out...but there is always something that doesn't SELL it for me. (sometimes it's the price) On that note, Lonestar Baby...have a clearance isle why don't you??? I saw a little clearance table with nothing but broken crap on it. Pffft. They have some of the same sets at Burlington Coat Factory for less. Courtney told me this place was on the expensive side. I love how they have a lot of nurseries set up so you can look at them. I loved the furniture too, but man...my pockets are shallow. I am becoming so cheap that I squeak when I walk. There was an awesome stroller that had metal wheels, brakes, a suspension, and completely customizable...um yes please! Wait, how many hundreds of dollars?? Damnit. Me being more of a motor head and Eric being...well, a guy. We wanted it. I believe I will present the options to the grandpa's....perhaps we can get little dude a stroller a MAN can be proud of. ;)

I'm still a little scared about being a parent and I think I figured out why I am anxious. Other than the fact that most, if not all women feel this way with their first baby. I figured out that it makes me not the "kid" anymore of the family. I know...I'm knocking on 30 but I still feel like the kid at Grandmother's house. I sit at the "kid" table at Thanksgiving since my brother and I are the only grandchildren. I realized that this knocks all the people older than me into the next category. Yikes. I over-analyze too much. And I know I'm still immature...want to know why I'm immature? B/c when I typed the word "analyze", I paused and laughed when I spelled out anal before finishing the word. Heh.

This is a fun journey on the road of life. I can't wait for the next step! We are all very excited to see meet all the little boys that will be born in the next few months.

Another first...

Braxton Hicks. Pleh. I experienced my first "contraction" today. (I don't know why I put that in "" since it is a true contraction in some regard) I'm realizing that my body is finally starting to feel the pains of pregnancy. I get back spasms now when I'm just STANDING there. My belly isn't even big yet. Oh yes, it must be from my huge boobs. (I just really wanted to say that once and half way mean it. HA!!!) I don't like these physical restrictions...I mean, I LOVE to be lazy but when I'm actually being productive I really would like to finish what I start. So, would you like to hear what activity put me into a contraction? I was roofing the house. Ha ha ha, NOT. For real this time. Dusting. Yup. I think that means I'm officially fat. I was helping my Grandmother at her house and as I was finishing the last room I felt suddenly heavy in my belly. Man, that uterus gets hard as a rock. It was so weird and uncomfortable!!! Made me panic a little. I mean, the Dr. told me they are expected and as long as I don't have more than 4 an hour it's okay - I just need to lay down and drink lots of water. I panicked b/c I finally realized that I am no longer in control of many bodily functions. Yes, you read that right...functions is plural. I totally should be at a keg party lately with all my belching abilities. I don't even try to be discreet anymore. Damn, I'm hot.

I'm thankful for my best friend (shout out! you know who you are) to help guide me through these new milestones of pregnancy. It's hard feeling out of control and stupid about some stuff. You can read a book all you want, but it really doesn't prepare you for it.

Other than that, I feel little man move every day now...some days more than others. I can't tell any patterns too much yet, except that he is always awake at 6:30am. It's fun feeling him move around, but still feels a little alien to me. I feel March approaching very fast. AH!!!!

20 Weeks

Okay, I'm half way through. Oh my gosh. Wait, I think this is going too fast! It finally hit me the other day that I don't have much longer before little man will be here. My brain is flooded with thoughts. What do we name him? What do we do for the nursery? What do we buy? Where do I get a money tree? AHHHHH!!!!!! Okay, just breathe. It's just a tiny baby right, it won't be that big of a change. HA! I'll be honest...I'm a little intimidated about being a parent. I believe we will both be great parents but that is a lot of responsibility. It's not about us anymore. I'm thankful we have such great parents that can help us manage the arrival of our son. I really want to know what he will look like. I guess I feel like I should be more prepared....but I'm so undecisive lately. Plus I realize that this is one of those life events that you simply can't prepare enough for. I can't commit to anything, I don't know how I want the nursery to look. I don't like hardly any boy names right now. I guess when the right things come along I will know. I'm not TOO worried about it, I just hate not knowing sometimes.

So, my belly popped out about a week ago. Hello! Just all of a sudden too, it's crazy how it does that. Where the hell was this all hiding before?? It is getting rounder every day, but I really like it. I have never gotten more enjoyment from rubbing my tummy. I do feel light kicks and movement almost every day, but some days I don't feel anything. I hate that. I can't wait for him to let me know exactly what he's doing all the time. That will be fun. (however, when next year rolls around I'll probably be ready to have my body back to myself) Today I felt some stronger movement...almost like he was stretching. I looked down and saw the top of my belly rise and fall a few times. It was so cool!! Finally, a visual confirmation that something IS growing and moving around in there. I'm also very happy to say that I get full very quickly now...so hopefully I will gain the "recommended" amount from now on.

New spot for Jolie

I guess Jolie really wanted to lay in the sun this day b/c I found her in the blinds. Daisy didn't know what to think about this crazy cat.

Afternoon naps

This is Daisy's favorite spot on our couch. I hate that it messes up the cushion but sometimes she just looks so cute I can't help but let her sleep there.

18-19 Weeks

Okay, so from my first due date I'm 19 weeks. BUT, if we are going by my last ultrasound I am 18 weeks. As I mentioned in a previous post, I don't know what my actual due date is...but the dates were only different by 3 days. SO....I will have to find out at my next appointment. Doesn't really matter. What's 3 days? (ha ha, okay so when I'm HUGE that 3 days will be a BIG DEAL)

Nothing really new to post I guess. (I'll add a pic to this shortly...I'm lazy and the camera is downstairs at the moment)

I am pretty sure I felt a kick on October 25 (my Dad's birthday to be exact). I think I feel a kick MAYBE once a day, but I still have a hard time knowing for sure. (Thank you anterior placenta)

My weight gain is under control more....or at least I feel like it is. I have started to taper off on the gaining EVERY day...thank God. It's really hard to know how big I should look. I know how much weight gain is okay but weight on a scale and the way it looks in the mirror are totally different. (and yes, I know...every woman carries different and looks different, but it's just weird when you start doing double takes in the mirror) I feel the need to compare bellies for sanity. Part of the problem is that I'm still in the "I just look fat; maybe pregnant" stage. Here soon it will be OBVIOUS.

Picking a name is stressful too. Girl names are easier b/c they all sound pretty. Boy names are hard in my opinion if you don't already have a favorite. It has to be a strong name, a good name. Not one that will get his ass kicked at school. (kids are so mean) I don't have many ideas at the moment, but I'm still looking. I probably won't know until he's out.

Broken Heart

I don't want to type much on this subject right now b/c I don't want to get sad and depressed. As many of you know via facebook, my Chester is not with me anymore. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do and my heart is broken. He was not doing good for a few months and these last 4 weeks were VERY rough so I knew it was about that time. I had been hand feeding him and coaxing him to eat for several weeks and I was doing everything I could to make him comfortable and feel loved. (If you do not know how I am with my dogs, and especially how I was with Chester you would know that he was my baby. His needs always took priority over my own.) He started to whimper pretty loudly last Wednesday night (and he NEVER cries, EVER...so laid back and easy going) and I knew he was in pain. He couldn't get comfortable and his eyes were telling me something. We took him around 1am to an emergency animal clinic and had a doctor look at him. She said he had lost so much weight and he wasn't doing very good. She said we had 2 choices: do every kind of testing and treatment imaginable, or to put him to sleep. I had already been putting him through all kinds of tests and treatment since June of this year. Kidney problems, bladder problems....he either had kidney failure or bladder cancer-neither were treatable. I didn't think he wanted to be stuck with needles anymore and I knew from spending every waking moment with him how he must have felt. I didn't want him to spend any overnight time at the vet when he was so sad. :( It was so hard to do, but we decided to let him go to sleep after 14 years on this earth. I really believe he had cancer b/c of how he took a turn for the worst. I miss him so much. He has slept by my belly at night since before I could drive. He is forever missed and irreplaceable.

They also asked if I wanted to take him home in a coffin to bury him, or no coffin, or leave him there, or have him creamated. I hadn't really thought about that before. I knew I could not leave him there for the last time...he has to come back to his mommy. I opted to have him creamated b/c I didn't want to bury him in our yard here. I don't know how long we will stay here and it might sound silly, but I want to find a good place for him to rest. So, until I find that spot, he will be in an urn in my house. Maybe it's morbid, but it sets my soul at ease. I found a necklace online that I bought that means "you left a paw print on my heart" and I can put a small amount of his ashes in there. I will be happy to get my necklace so he can be with me again. I feel alone despite the growing child inside me.

Chester should be back home in the next few days.

Oh Boy!

Had a sonogram on Monday and found out we are having a boy. Crazy! My original due date was 03/22/2010 but my sono at 9 weeks said 03/26/2010 and my sono on Monday said my EDD was 03/25/2010. I feel stupid, but I'm not sure what it really is. I always forget to ask something at the doctor. I don't know why...maybe it's because I sit in the waiting room bored and tuned into my own head and I just can't seem to pull myself out of the fog. Anyways, everything looked good from what I could see and it was so neat to see him moving around in there. I can feel the "flutters" but no real kicks yet. Turns out my placenta is anterior so it could take a little longer for me to feel. I'll probably appreciate that extra padding later on when he is much stronger.


Interesting side note: I just found out my new nickname from my brother is "chunk." Nice.


It feels different knowing that it's boy and not just an "it" anymore. It's neat to think about what he will look like, and how he will sound. I can't wait to buy little sneakers and baseball hats.
Time to decorate and shop! Woohoo! I will be looking all over for fun stuff to get. I really love craigslist right now. If you hear of any good deals, let me know. :)

16 weeks

Well, I made it to the fourth month mark. I find it a little odd that I have gotten sick to my stomach more now since I'm OUT of the first trimester. Joy. Tonight I noticed my actual baby bump swelling out more. (the bump in my pictures is my usual "padding" that has been pushed up by my growing uterus) As Courtney would say "sexy." I try to feel the baby move but I haven't had much luck. I think I feel something going on, but I can't tell yet. They say it could feel like bubbles but if I think hard enough I can always feel something bubbling down in my belly. Hopefully I will feel something soon, I'm very excited about that part. I feel a little weird b/c I feel very out of the loop on being pregnant since I don't feel anything and I've only had one sonogram. I'm a nervous person anyways and I have to really relax and realize that everything is fine. (I always turn to Courtney for reassurance...she is my mommie consultant) I go to the Dr. on Friday and I am excited to hear a loud heartbeat this time around. At my 12 week appointment I could only hear a very faint heartbeat and I heard a kick too...so that was neat. I will get to schedule my sonogram soon and hopefully we will find out what it is. I'm extremely excited about this next sonogram more for the fact that it will look like a baby and not a shrimp and I can confirm that it is healthy.

I don't really have any weird cravings yet other than I just want more of the stuff I have always liked. Cheese, pickles, Pepperidge Farm cookies, and of course ice cream and oreos...oh and apples. Mmmm, well I guess I should sign off now...talking about food has created a hungry monster inside me. So far, my favorite thing about being pregnant....the boobs.

Weird...just as I was finishing up on this I think I felt something move. Ha! Not sure, I wasn't paying much attention. Hold on...I'll be very still....there it was again! I think? I'll walk around, see if I have to fart. If I don't , then I'll believe I actually felt baby. :)

Question for you Moms out there...

How do you tell if you are valid for being pissed off at something or if you are being a pregnant bitch? Lately I can't seem to tell the difference.

Maybe I'm just extra touchy from hormone/body changes. (You think??) Seeing my weight increase so fast is really hard to adjust to...regardless if I'm growing a baby or not.

Baby bump or candy bump?

I missed out on taking a 12 week belly pic so I took one this week and I'll take one again on Sunday for 16 weeks. I have a pic at 15 weeks exactly but I'm in a thong and I don't feel like posting that over the net. :) I have been indulging in a lot of candy (it's supposed to be for trick or treaters but we couldn't resist the candy isle) lately so I am assuming that has to do with my belly growing suddenly.

I spoke too soon

Well, it seems for the past couple of days I have been getting very queasy. I really hope I'm not getting morning sickness now! I can't figure it out, maybe it's just from my sinus crap going on. Or maybe it's all in my head. I had a horrible migraine 2 days ago and I thought I was going to die for about 5 hours. My friend Amanda came to the house and gave me some anti-nausea medicine. Then I remember Courtney called me and asked if I needed some Zofran...luckily I already had some. Thank you for checking on me!! I barely remember our short conversation, I know I wasn't much fun to talk to.

Other than feeling a little blah, I went to Ross to look for some stuff for Eric and I lucked out in the maternity section. I didn't even know they had one there. I found a lot of cute shirts and a few pairs of pants. They were very affordable; I hope they don't fall apart after 1 wash. I guess this is a good time in fashion to be pregnant b/c all the maternity shirts I got look like everything else in the "regular" sections. The shirts are loose and a little bunchy (is that a word?) with a band at the waist. I suffer from horrible buyers remorse so as soon as I walked out with my bags I already wanted to turn around and return most of it. After I thought for a moment I realized that even if I get too fat too quick to wear these clothes, I will be able to wear them after baby is born this spring. I felt much better.

I need to get off my butt and go buy the steam cleaner I want, but I feel so unmotivated right now. I really need a carpet steam cleaner b/c the dogs have done quite a number on the carpet. Mainly numbers 1 and 2. HA!!! I also really want one of those Shark Mops....have you seen these? It works with steam and the pads are washable. That way your floors are clean, you don't have to buy cleaner and they aren't sticky at all. I can't decide if I want one or the other...and I really want both but I don't want to spend like $350 on cleaning stuff. Oh wait, I'll just go pick some money off my money tree and pull the rest out of my ass. Right.

If I end up with any of the above listed items, I will let you know how they work out.

Hello Sweatpants!

This isn't really a surprise to the few people that probably read my blog. (ahem...Courtney and Amy) But...for those of you that casually check in on my life should be happy that I finally have interesting stuff to talk about. I'm pregnant. 14 weeks at the moment. Apparently something was in the air in June b/c 2 other friends of mine (over-achiever twin-making Courtney and _____ (not sure if I can say) all got pregnant within 2-3 weeks. February-March should be very busy next year! This was not a planned pregnancy so apparently it was just supposed to happen. I had a feeling for some odd reason and I took a test when it only showed a speck of positive. No joke, a speck. No faint line, just a dot. That's a great way to spend the next couple of days...wondering if it's just a weird dot or a positive test. I waited a day or two and then I got a very faint line. I still took a couple more tests out of disbelief. It was weird that I knew it was coming, I had been having dreams about babies. Twins actually. Courtney told me she was pregnant and I told her about my twin dream and I said I knew someone was having them. I thought it was maybe going to be me but I was wrong. Well, half-wrong.


My due date right now is March 22nd. I had a sonogram at 9 weeks and got to see the peanut (I'll try to scan the pic sometime soon). The first thing I asked the technician was "please look around and make sure there is just one." After Courtney's little surprise I got nervous b/c it CAN happen. Not that I think having twins is anything shy of a miracle, but I don't think it's fair to have your first pregnancy bring on DOUBLE EVERYTHING. Don't I get to use the first kid as a tester? Heh. I will have another sonogram between 16-20 weeks to determine my final due date. If it behaves, maybe we will find out what it will be earlier than 20 weeks. Then I can stop referring to it as an "it."

I hope I'm in the clear for saying this, but I didn't really have bad morning sickness. I felt sick ALL the time but I never actually prayed to the porcelain gods. Thank the Lord. One night I felt so horrible that I had a cold washcloth on my face and I laid on the couch for hours just trying not to puke. I got up to get some water and I let out the biggest burp ever. Of course no one was home for me to brag to. I felt much better after that. It was the most satisfying burp ever. Okay, gross. Oh, and I've had what I'm hoping is a sinus infection for the past 2 months. I hope it's that and not pregnancy rhinitis that can last for up to 6 weeks after giving birth. Excuse me? That can't be right. I have to squeeze this baby out from WHERE and on top of that I could possibly turn into this mouth-breathing hormone-racing psychotic fat woman for the next 3 seasons?! I don't think so! I can't breathe; can't take any good drugs. Tylenol is a joke...I think the bottle I bought is the one where the factory worker fell asleep and forgot to put in the shit that makes it work. Does absolutely nothing for me unless I have a very mild headache...which is very rare. Migraines have returned to my life again, but so far they havent been TOO bad. I don't sleep either...which really blows b/c I can't fall asleep breathing through my mouth. I know I will not ever sleep through the night again for the next ump-teen years so why the hell wouldn't I be allowed to sleep more than 3 hours at a time now?!?! (okay yeah, so maybe I have symptoms of bitch too)


Other than that, I'm doing pretty good. I'm starting to get excited about the future and all the tiny clothes I get to buy. I can't wear my jeans comfortably anymore. It is a sad day when you can't put on that great pair of "damn these make my ass look good jeans." I really need more stretchy clothes. I don't have the cute baby bump yet either, I just look fat. You know, like the chick who wears that t-shirt that is just a little too tight to show off her belly. A belly that looks to be the result of years of drinking way too much beer and midnight munchies. Sexy. So, until I actually feel like it's time to buy maternity clothes I will be modeling many styles of yoga and sweat pants.



Stay tuned...

We finally did it!

So it took a while, but we finally tied the knot. It was perfect. Here are a few pics, these are also on Facebook.

New Addition

We welcomed Daisy to our family a few weeks ago. She is a 1 1/2 year old pit bull who is sweet as can be. She is quite the cuddler and loves to give hugs. Chester seems to get along with her very well unless there is a bone up for grabs. He then becomes the alpha dog and goes for her neck. She just looks at him like "fool, please." Our cat Jolie does not like Daisy, but Jolie starts it! They will get along someday.

Crawfish Boil

Eric's dad likes to host a crawfish boil every now and then. I personally do not like crawfish, pleh!! To be honest, I do not have hardly any pictures of me b/c I just hid behind the camera while everyone ate. I think they cooked about 80 lbs. Poor little guy, didn't know what was coming.

He was giving lessons on how to eat them. I did not participate. It smelled gross to me, although Eric made me try one. I chewed it and spit it out. Tasted like lake. I was the photographer for the rest of the day.

Double Rainbow

These were taken a few weeks ago but I am behind on my posting. We were able to see a full double rainbow outside our house. It was so pretty I thought I would share.

Chester turns 13!

Well, I'm a little late but we celebrated Chester's 13th birthday on April 21st. I can't believe it. He is just such a joy in my life and I'm so lucky to have such a companion.

Some pics

Okay, so nothing too exciting going on...life is busy and I don't even have kids yet! (How do you people manage??) Anyway, just some pics I like...

I'm lame

So, I have neglected this blog because I feel very boring lately. Nothing new to post either, thanks to facebook. It practically tells all your business! I guess I should confess now before it is a facebook notification that I am eating crunchy reese's peanut butter cups for a late night snack. mmmmm, and it's worth every bite.

So, I guess I should play with my camera more and start posting interesting pics or something since I have no material.

I'll get back to you on that...

Chester!

Check out this pic of Chester in mid bark. It's so funny to me. He bounces with every bark. I love my new camera. Great action shots.

I hate punks

So, we are trying to pump gas and these guys are talking shit to Eric while he's walking to the door. Like, "macho" guy talk saying "HEY, hey man" and crap like that. Just trying to start some bullshit. I guess he was trying to prove that he had balls; that he was no vag. Eric ignores them and goes in to pay for the gas. He's standing outside the car about to pump the gas and we hear two loud POPS. I thought it was fireworks being New Years Day. I leaned out of the car and asked Eric if that was a gun. He said he wasn't sure. About that time, I looked back at the car where those guys were and I saw a laser beam pointed at our car...Eric saw it moving in front of him on the ground. It was moving all over the place. I yelled at Eric "GET IN THE CAR!!!" He jumps in and 6 more shots are fired as they speed off. We were ducking down in the car. Nothing hit, we did not hear any bullets but it was definitely gunfire. A pistol. It was scary. Eric and another dude walked over to where the car was to see if they shot someone behind the store or something. Nothing...didn't see any shells on the ground either. We stayed to pump the gas and then we left ASAP. We didn't see anything well enough to provide a description for the police. Eric went inside to speak to the clerk and we took off. Maybe the assholes were shooting at each other in the car. I hope so. Who knows. As Eric says "you can't do anything about those situations." Sad world, people are so selfish. Maybe it's time for a CHL...

I won't be sleeping tonight. And from now on, I will be taking note of EVERY car at gas stations.